Hehe

I just realise that maybe I've found a guy with good qualities that I want. WHO? Nahh not gonna tell you haha. Actually I don't really set my target to get that guy, it's just that I like him for his good qualities. Not really a crush indeed. Some of his good qualities are kind, smart, sweet (....awkward) and so on. I wish my future life partner is like him hahaha this guy....hm takpe lah, kasi orang lain XD

Pre-freedom.

Hehe alhamdulillah, just done with my trials before recess this morning! I thought I wanna study by myself in my class after recess as I don't usually "fly" home. Actually after recess there were talks for us form 5 students. Well the first talk was about offshore overview. It was quite interesting :) My dad and brothers had experienced working offshore though. After that the second talk which was about study-SPM-study-work was handled by ex-students of my school. The talk was good also :D It feels good to know that they were studying overseas. Staying overseas is like..one of my dreams. Anyway, it's time for Vines XD

A productive night.

Alhamdulillah, just now I did many Add Maths questions. I actually want to get > 60% for this upcoming exam. I'm glad that my mom can help me to solve some questions. I even deactivated my FB and Twitter for a few reasons but now I'm on FB again haha. Well I plan to wake up at 4.30 in the morning later. InsyaAllah I won't fall asleep again, this is for the sake of getting much higher score :p Actually I just turned on this lappie to charge my iPod and play Candy Crush. Currently at level 125 meh this level is...gay lol.

I think it's time to go through this by myself. I don't want to ask for other people's help anymore. Let's just leave it to Allah. :)

:'(

This afternoon I talked to mom and I thought I wanna study Add Maths by myself this evening. But now, as usual I go online with Add Maths books beside me. But just now, there was "this feeling" that made me have a huge urge to stalk him. (I decided not to stalk his page.) So I changed my mind and really went to stalk him and........BAM. Okay menyesal gila. I continued stalking to "torture" myself. WHAT..APA NI I didn't want to do that!! I remember that I fought with my feeling to stalk, in the end why I stalked anyway.

Now I feel bad for my mom - even though she doesn't know what I'm actually doing as she's not at home right now. I feel bad because of the thing that's torturing me, make me lose my spirit to continue studying. Just thank you very much.

p/s: still...I didn't want to do that.....

My mind is still in a good condition.

Um...well, actually many of my friends ask me to get over him. Yes I know why and I don't wanna tell the reasons here. It's a "long" story haha. Btw I've actually made a big mistake there - putting my hopes up too high on someone whom is not even mine. Argh I wish I could reverse the time when we just started being friends. Well note to self, "Don't expect too much, because the higher you are, the deeper you might fall." Meh it's my bad, I can't always blame the person for always disappointing me. I may look bossy to him somehow. To the readers here, remember that there must be a good reason for everything that happened. God sent him into my life to teach me lessons. I think that's the answer so I shouldn't be sad all the time. Then God will give me something much better in the future, insyaAllah :)

Dear my friends, whatever it is I need some time to get over this -_-

Accomplishment (Part II)

        There was a visit that seems to be unforgettable to me until now. It was a 10-minute-car distance from home, my parents and I arrived at a house. I thought I have seen that house before. I used to passing by that house almost everyday when I was small. So yes, I stopped at that house for the first time.
        The door was opened, a tall and thin woman smiled and welcomed my parents and I. A cute little girl stood beside her. We stepped into the house. The living room was incredibly nice. I guessed this woman really loved vintage. I love that style too. She welcomed my parents and I to have a sit. A few minutes later, I tend to stand up and had a look around the living room. There were many picture frames hanging on the wall. I took a quick glance at them. There was a picture of that woman and her two children.
        "The one in red is my son," the woman broke the silence and smiled. "Well, he likes to wear sunglasses, even at home just to be vain," she added. I smiled cheekily as I thought that sounded funny. The little girl stood on the stairs and shouted, "Abang, do not just stay in your room for the whole day. Come down from there!" She looked younger than 7. "Just a minute," a manly voice replied from upstairs.
        A tall and handsome guy came down the stairs. I dropped my jaw, it was very surprising that he was the guy that I had a big crush on when I was 9. He was shocked to see me too. "Annisa?" he said my name. It was good that he still remembered me. "You know each other?" her mom, Mrs Hajar asked. That guy, Zamri answered, "Yes, we have known each other since we were 9."  "That is awesome! Well Annisa, the food is ready. Why do not you go to sit at the dining table," said Mrs Hajar. "Auntie, Uncle, come and have lunch with us," said Zamri to my parents with a smile.
        I was enjoying my meal as I was hungry too. The food was extremely delicious. There was a long conversation going on between my parents and Mrs Hajar. Zamri and I were not talking at all. "So Zamri is your name?" dad asked suddenly. Zamri smiled and nodded. He was still a shy guy like when we were small. 20 minutes later, on the way back home, dad said, "Annisa, I have something to tell you." He added, "I am going to marry Auntie Hajar soon. Mom already gave me the permission." My heart stopped for a while but I was still quiet at the back seat. My dad added, "For your information, Auntie Hajar just got a divorce with Zamri's dad. She does not have a really good job to support her family. Anyway, she and I are working at the same place and I just found out her current status." "Do not worried, girl. I am fine with that," said mom. I bursted into tears because I could not imagine if I have a stepmother.
        Two years have passed, I am already fine to have this big family. I know my dad actually loves both of his wives. Now Zamri is outside playing badminton with my brother. That cute little girl, Asha is with my mom in the kitchen. I can also hear my newborn brother crying. Today they are visiting my mom, brother and I.

Accomplishment (Part I)

I prefer typing in English online, yet I can't speak fluently in real life..sad right? I remember in 2009 when I looked a bit slower in speaking English and I was lack of confidence. (well now too, I guess -_-) Kirtana was trying to encourage me to speak more, she even recommended to join our school's Debate Club. Wow I guessed that's too much for me hahaha. But it's okay, as long as I can type/write well like I'm doing right now. Btw, on that 1st day of Ramadhan (I still remember), Teacher Syed gave us 5 essay questions and we had to choose one, a narrative essay was my choice :) Actually I don't really write that kind of essay in my school. The title given was The Visit. But that day I had some brilliant ideas suddenly.

Same goes to my English SPM trial, I got to write another narrative essay entitled The Value of a True Friend. I think those opinion essays are too mainstream already :p However, I hope I'd get good remarks for this narrative essay. So in my next post I'd like to share what I wrote during the fasting month. It's an accomplishment when Teacher Syed gave me a good response. :)

Things I wanna do after SPM.

I'm really looking forward to the moments after SPM. Like two years ago, I was done with PMR and our plans, activities, and moments were enjoyable ;) So now I'm already planning some things;

• Take orders to bake cakes.
• Continue losing my body weight. - yes I have to.
• Bake with my friends.
• Go for PLKN. - I wanna make new friends.
• Visit my cousin in New Zealand. - mehh this country looks good.
• Go to Melbourne again. - the city is quite calm.
• Meet Kam Mun. - one of my close friends when I left Sri Permata.
• Meet Mokeen in real life, for the first time. - haha we've been chatting online for more than 3 months.
• *add more*

However, as you know..I dream big. I actually imagine that I get a string of As in SPM, wait actually I can but I need to put on extra efforts right. I also imagine my reaction when I look at my result slip, I'd hug my friends, call my mom (or maybe I'd just stay in her car until we reach home). Oh...my laziness, go away.

Buang masa.

So this is my first post, I know I should have gone to study but I have the urge to share something here tonight ^-^ Meh, currently in SPM trial season and we'll be facing killer subjects next week - Chemistry, Sejarah, Add Maths, Physics ._.  what a candidate I am, still procrastinating here. Mama is in Alor Setar right now to attend my cousin's wedding on the next afternoon. I'm staying here because...you know. Anyway thanks to Ben Gee for asking me to create a blog. I used to have one though, but deleted it a few years ago. Now I feel like having one, again so...yay?? haha well I stop here :)