:'(

This afternoon I talked to mom and I thought I wanna study Add Maths by myself this evening. But now, as usual I go online with Add Maths books beside me. But just now, there was "this feeling" that made me have a huge urge to stalk him. (I decided not to stalk his page.) So I changed my mind and really went to stalk him and........BAM. Okay menyesal gila. I continued stalking to "torture" myself. WHAT..APA NI I didn't want to do that!! I remember that I fought with my feeling to stalk, in the end why I stalked anyway.

Now I feel bad for my mom - even though she doesn't know what I'm actually doing as she's not at home right now. I feel bad because of the thing that's torturing me, make me lose my spirit to continue studying. Just thank you very much.

p/s: still...I didn't want to do that.....